The Wall

Ok, are you thinking about the Pink Floyd song…I am. The wall. No way around. Can’t see through it. Don’t know really what’s on the other side. Or maybe I do. But I can’t push through this.

Last night as I’m sleeping once again wake up with the sweats, no one to help me, no one to make me warm. I am a widow. No one there to care. It’s ok. It’s just me and God.

So, I cry out. I can’t do this. I’m sooo cold. Please help me. I can’t.

Readng this morning Psalm 64 and I was so blessed.

David. Remember a man after Gods heart. He was struggling. He was a warrior, a fighter but he was struggling. He was exhausted couldn’t do it.

We all have our moments.

But we see how a man of God, does this.

He says it just like it is….. “I’m overwhelmed”.

He pours it all out. What was happening to him. The enemy and his words. Evil, cunning, destructive.

David couldn’t change this.

The wall!

Then verse 7. Which I love. I love the “Buts” of the Bible. I love it! watch as this wall becomes nothing.

Psalm 64:7-10

“But God himself (not an angel, God himself) will shoot them down. Suddenly, his arrows will pearce them. Their own words will be turned against them destroying them. All who see it happening will shake their heads in scorn. Then everyone will stand in awe, proclaiming the mights acts of God, realizing all the amazing things he does.

The godly will rejoice in the Lord and find shelter in him. And those who do what is right will praise him.”

But God.

He hears our cries of exahuston.

We stand behind this wall, crying out to him. And then there is an eternal perspective. God’s. Do you want it? He’s so willing to change our perspective. Let Him.

So thankful that God is still the same, yesterday, today and forever. (That’s a good thing, right)

That wall of…. I’m overwhelmed, I can’t do this, I can’t even see. Remember the but of Psalm 64.

“But God himself”

As a believer God will show us His perspective. God used his own arrows to defeat them.

God himself will show up. Sometimes he sends his angels to do his ministering. But today with David….God showed up.

Last night as I’m crying out to God to help me. I was freezing from my head to toe sweat. Hair actually wet. I am in the middle of a fast. For my health. Trying to do it right. Need to sleep etc. Well, it wasn’t so restful. First time up. Wake up wet from head to toe. Drenched in sweat. Now what? I’m freezing if I get out of this bed. I hate to be cold. God help me. I can’t do this. I hate to be cold but I had to. When I got out of bed somehow I was able to do it. I was warm. And then make the bed change and try again. Trying to heal right, sleep. So, now breathing excersises. Then sweats again, one more time. Change the sheets, change. Settle again. Making the bed twice with dogs on it was a lot. Especially in the sleep brain that I was having. Trying not to wake up so much that it would be hard to go back to sleep. It’s a real struggle for me. But I had to. I just keep crying out to God to help me. One more time.

So, now all settled, sleep. Doing my breathing excersises. Sleep, heal, that’s what on my mind. And what happens next, doggie needs to go out. What…no way…poor Holly with her digestive issues. I can’t do this. I just can’t. It was a battle. God helped me once again.

All in the midst of this I knew my God. I knew Him. I could trust him completely, he’s got me.

So, this reading today was just a confirmation once agian of who God is. This side of the wall is our perspective, our strength, our where-with-all.

The other side is God’s perspective. That removes the wall. That wall will come down when you have God’s perspective. Like David cried out in his exhaustion, he knew his God.

So, today as I’m out and about, I will get overwhelmed. I will it’s just human. But I know my God will show up.

Hallelujah!!